Being alone is such a rare event. And today I have about eight hours for myself! So I enjoy my focus on quiet and calmness. In the morning I sang a song when I realized that no one is going to ask me: “What do you sing? Where is the […]
I have mentioned my sleep problems many times in my posts. Although my sleep deprivation was the worst for months and years after B. was born, it started a long time before (I am able to track it into 2013). For years, almost a decade, I did not remember any […]
The present situation is unforeseeable, insecure and scary for many people in the world. I am scared about future too. But I need to take many steps to keep my mental health where it is now, not to sink which would be so easy. I need to keep myself sane […]
The present situation is unforeseeable, insecure and scary for many people in the world. I am scared about future too. But I need to take many steps to keep my mental health where it is now, not to sink which would be so easy. I need to keep myself sane […]
I love you. All three of us love each other. All the people love each other. B. (3,5 years old) This is what B. said with certainty few weeks ago. Then I responded: “I wish it was true.” Now I wish I reacted differently. I could support his intention to […]
Again. Scared of going to bed, of images in my head. Me and B. sleeping next to each other. Strong wind breaks the window. B. is injured by pieces of broken glass. Me helplessly looking at him. A tree falls down on me, injured, can’t move. B. looking at me […]
Dear teacher, dear classmates! Our primary school IX.A class reunion took place on Friday. Looking through photographs – smiling faces, hugs – it seems like you spent nice time together. I remember all the people in photographs, I recognized you. Luckily, my memory still works quite well. Sometimes I feel […]
It all started in 2015 when I spent five months on my Erasmus study stay at University of Balearic Islands in Palma de Mallorca. I began with an official university course but after half-term test, which results were great, I decided to ask my Mallorcan friend E. to teach me. […]
We are ill. All three of us. For the third week. Our voices sound like they do not belong to us – mumbling, low pitch, sniffs, coughs… Something what I have just heard about became our reality – we spread illness among us over and over again. Each of us […]
Last weeks were quite busy as we went to Vienna for a week. M. worked and B. and I spent days mostly in sandpits and nearby woods. We explored the area around an old villa where we stayed. B. fluctuated between enthusiasm and fear during that week. The old villa […]